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is it possible that two people who love each other so much can also hurt each other at the same time?
can it be called love if hurt is involved? or is it part of love? i don't know what to think anymore, my head has been going crazy these past few days... from what? from everything!!! work, love, life itself.... three major things that affect me the most in my life... too emo? yeah as ava keeps on telling lolz.... i'd often think of qaiqai during these time because she'd always tell me to think of happy thoughts....
happy thoughts? when the only happy thoughts that i have are the ones that are hurting me & making me confused at the moment...
i know.... we both know the only solution to this is to try to make it work one more time... not to give up or to give up... my mind & heart tells me to fight... but im also tired at the same time... sleep has been evading me these past few days & it's not helping at all...
happy thoughts again... his smile... his face... his childlike ways... that's what makes me happy... being in his arms while watching telly together... laughing at silly things... the sweet nothings & the sweet little things that he comes up with ( believe me it's not often though lol )...
i've always felt that i don't belong... whatever i do & wherever i go... like there's this void inside of me... like it's looking for something to complete me... but when i'm with him i don't feel those things anymore... when were together everything just feels right... like this is the place that i always want to be.... beside him....
there it goes... the answer to my questions... now all i have to do is to make it right this time... now all i have to do is convince him.... now all i have to do is enjoy the moments & not aim for perfection because nothing is perfect in this world....
funny how the realization came just when i'm pouring out my thoughts... i really have to get back to this as much as possible...
maybe sleep will come tonight, finally....
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